You have no idea how hard this is on me. Both my children in school this year. I've stayed home with my children since they were born, seven and a half years. Now, I am going back to work and my life is changing.
My heart actually aches for my kids. I can't even look at their pictures when they were younger right now...it just hurts so much. The sounds of them playing or even fighting would be better than this silence. I have plenty to keep me busy, but oh how I wish it was preparing to take my children to story time at the library or COSI's little kidspace. I miss my life from the passed few years...I don't know how I feel about where I am currently, but what I do know is that I wish I could look forward to it. Really, I'm just doing it to help pay bills...bills that I accrued b/c I wanted to go back to work.
I just wish I could have sent E only half day kindergarten and been with him one more year. P hates After Care and that makes it even harder on me. I'm just really bummed out right now.
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