Induce

So, tomorrow is my due date and it couldn't be sooner. I haven't been sleeping for weeks, and I know that it will be the same when the baby comes but it won't be same kind of exhaustion. Hubby keeps talking about how tired we are going to be and I keep telling him, "Yeah, but it isn't the same exhaustion as when you are pregnant." Making a baby is really hard work even thought it is very natural. No wonder people used to not let pregnant women do anything in their final months - they needed the rest more than they needed the pampering! haha!

Anyhow, last night I was up until 5:30am. I can't take this anymore. I was embarressed because our friend Big came to help hubby move the new furniture into the baby's nursery. He asked Shane if I had been sleeping....I looked that bad. I was in Target the day before getting some blush (and I don't know when I'll get back to Aveda - not feeling mall-like at that moment) and thought my mascara had run. I licked my finger to remove the make-up and realized I was removing concealer and that my eyes were just that dark underneath. My dark circles looked like black eyes. I just can't take it anymore. Not just that I am tired, I am in pain. It is very painful to sleep at night and I think that keeps me up. Last night I came down and watched way too much Grizzly Man on Animal Planet, but I fell asleep. I think I'll just stay on the couch until I deliver. The support for my back and the way it supports my big belly is much better than the bed. I feel like such a complainer...jeez, I could be one of those women who is bed-ridden their last weeks or even months of pregnancy. A fellow classmate was on bedrest for EIGHT weeks. She was only allowed up to pee like 5 times a day and that was IT. She had to take her blood pressure throughout the day and call into her doctor's office. I have no right to complain about feeling tired or in pain when I hear stories like that.

If I don't go into labor by tomorrow night I am trying to get in to be induced on Wednesday...and I will probably chicken out and just wait until I absolutely would have to get induced. :) I got some advice from my friend's husband who is almost finished with his gynie residency. He gave me some excellent information that helps me feel MUCH better about the choice. But, I have to stop reading about it online...as hubby reminds me, information online can be bogus even if the site looks reputable. You have to be careful...and I get sucked into research and reading too much when I get obsessed about something.